June 30, 2025 — Have I ever been to Israel?

Have I ever been to Israel?

When I was getting my new international passport in Ukraine, they flipped through the old one, confiscated it, and didn’t allow me to keep it. I saw some stamp in it. I didn’t know what that stamp was, and only now have I suddenly realized that I never traveled anywhere with that passport while in a conscious state. Meaning, there shouldn’t have been any stamps there.

I have no idea why I am thinking about Israel.

Are these false memories, or is this a part of my life that amnesia has hidden? Is that why the Simferopol district police officer calls me “жидовка” (a kike)?

I am Olha Stefanishyna, originally from Sevastopol, Crimea.

This is a first-person testimony, based on dissociative flashbacks. I am recording them and analyze them. I do it because I have amnesia and didn’t know I am injured and traumatized till I started to work through it. No one worked with me on it so I am looking for witnesses and support on my own. Open letter.

Incidents from my direct memory and my commentary are marked in bold.

Important: Flashbacks and fragments are not the direct memory.